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I don't really have any new news right now, but I thought I'd pop in and put a few things down.

First of all, it's driving me nuts not telling anybody IRL! Yes, our parents know, and two VERY close friends, but that's pretty much it. Thank God I have my internet friends to talk to, and they let me be excited, and are excited with me. We still don't have a due date, so we're skeptical to say anything. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep quiet though!!! I'm just so damned excited, that I want to shout it to the world! I may not be the one who is pregnant, but in my heart I am... Does that even make sense? Our baby is alive, with a beating heart, just not in my womb...

Dan and I have looked at some baby stuff already and it's so exciting. We've checked out some strollers, travel sets, carseats and the prices of formulas and diapers. We're on the fence about cloth diapering. I'd LOVE to do it, but I'm afraid that I'll fail....We're still thinking on it :) As for formula...well, I really want to breastfeed. We've researched the option, and it seems as if it's a really viable option! Who would have thunk it??? From what we've read, it appears that I have a few choices to begin lactating. The first option (what we hope works) is that I actually become pregnant on the next IVF cycle, which means I will be lactating anyway. The second option is to start pumping on a regular schedule ASAP, and that should start lactation, when the baby arrives, I can use a system called Lact-Aid to help supplement as well as help boost lactation. The third option is medication along with pumping. It takes dedication, but so does breastfeeding a biological child. It's amazing the number of adoptive moms out there who have been able to do this, it really gives us hope! I want to add here, that if I'm unable to do this, it's OK, I was a formula fed baby, and I turned out just fine...

Is it awful that I also constantly want to look at baby things, and can't wait to start shopping and getting the nursery together? I had to go to the store today to pick up some prenatals to send to Amanda with the other stuff we sent her today, and couldn't leave the store until I walked through and looked at the baby clothes and accessories :) I already feel like an expectant Mom, and I know that Dan is excited too because of little things he says and does. An example would be this evening while we were at Sam's Club getting a few things. He happened to spot a car seat across the way, and said, "oh hey, look at this!". I think that he's going to be a little more reserved for a bit, but I totally understand that after all we've been through.